Pull up your pants boys, you’re far from being gentlemen. Nuff’ said.
I started my first blog in 2009 because I was a teenager who was about to burst with passion. I wanted a place where my words couldn’t ever be twisted, a place to call my own (rent free with my mommas cooking). My dying desire to create erased all fear of any ridicule or judgements that are often found during our teens. On January 26, 2011 I decided to stop drifting and begin a lifelong commitment to reality & making my dreams come true. I was ready for a new chapter.
After letting letting negativity consume me I was ready to take my inner strength back from unworthy experiences — & that was exactly what I did. I ran & lifted my way to the body I had prior to the depression, anxiety, injuries and insecurities. My self confidence improved but the real miracle was in my mind. My focus shifted from “woe is me” to “why not me?”. I changed my environment & surrounded myself with people who lifted me up versus knocking me down. I went to therapy multiple times a week & began creating (and rebuilding) healthy relationships. I had finally found my authentic self.
“When you are joyful, when you say yes to life and have fun and project positivity all around you, you become a sun in the center of every constellation, and people want to be near you.” -War & Peace
On March 20, 2011 I started this blog. I did not have a vision about what I wanted it to be, I just knew that I needed to write. I needed to say goodbye to the young girl that wanted to be heard and hello to the woman who was dying to listen & committed to inspiring. What once was a creative outlet is now a way to tell my story while inspiring you to not wait another second to begin yours. I hope you begin now & never look back. Like Jonathan Winters said, “If your ship doesn’t come in, swim out to it.” Don’t wait to hit rock bottom to create yourself… life is an incredible thing to miss out on.
All my love, Bee
(click the image to be taken to Enlighten Education, a program that helps teenage girls decode the mixed messages they receive and help them develop self-esteem and confidence)
In the last few weeks I have really lost sight of my priorities. The results are disappointing but tonight I realized the reason my results aren’t where I want them to be is because I’m cooking with a recipe for failure. The solution is simple, I need to change my ingredients. I wrote down my priorities (my well-being, the relationships in my life, career, education etc.) and then I wrote a list of improvements for each one. Doing this felt so good & helped me map out my plan to free myself from any self doubt &/or limits. Often I find myself slipping so fast that I don’t see the point in reaching for something to hang onto. The thing that is so important to remember is that it is never too late to re-evaluate your priorities & see if your lifestyle coincides with them. If what you’ve been doing isn’t working anymore, it’s okay. Things get used up & worn out but we can always start fresh. And that, in my opinion, is the beauty in having the option to turn your life around on any road.