When Things Get Heavy

One of my biggest flaws is not paying enough attention to detail (always has been) but I’m working hard to make sure it will not always be. I’m learning life is easier when we stop running away from our personal flaws.. or even worse, ignoring them. I’m not saying I accept the fact that I drove to Idaho this morning because I missed the exit I take to get home on a regular basis (too much on my mind + Romans neat perma-meow/panting the whole way home didn’t help)… Alls I’m sayin’ is I’m not going to beat myself into the ground because of it  (route B was much prettier anyway) My point is that mistakes do not erase our self-worth, they teach us lifelong lessons that increase it bit by bit. This is, of course, as long as we choose to learn from the bumps in the road instead of letting them throw us off track.

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I guess what I’m trying to say is a little bird is telling me one of you may need to be reminded that you’re incredible, and you probably don’t even know it. Be soft with yourself, sweets. You’re just learning and the books only get heavier from here. Get some reading glasses that you feel like a babe in & get to studying, darlin. It’s a long, windy, beautiful & sometimes ugly road ahead. (Don’t tell your mum I said this) but sometimes I get so busy keeping my heart active that I forget to use my brain — and I don’t see a damn thing wrong with that.

All that it wanted to be

On March 20th 2011 I embarked on a new adventure. During that adventure I sailed amid many incredible sunsets, found inspiration from every fish in the sea & experienced a handful of storms that forced me to just breathe & trust the wind. In the end I met you at the perfect little dock. I am proud to say that you are far from regular and I am so glad I’ve been given the chance to be graced by your love & light. Cheers to letting the first ocean we sailed together be all that it wanted to be & here’s to many more together.

1 year down sweets! Happy birthday baby blog! And thank you, I couldn’t have a better crew.

All my love, Bailey Mikell

Twice For Luck

Andy woke me up at 2:30 in the morning to tell me that our fish, Blackie Chan, has been eating the rocks in his bowl & then spitting them out. I asked him if that was some kind of joke when we got up today, and he said no. He accused me of starving Blackie – But I feed him 3 times a day. So what the hell dude? What kind of fish does that? Anyway, that was the way I started my day today.

Lately whenever water gets spilled on the floor & I step in it (which grosses me out really bad for some reason) I automatically assume someone pee’d on the floor. Why? Why do I do this? It’s not like there is a dog or a kid here? I am an odd duck.

I am going to be working on my paper tonight. It’s due on Tuesday so it’s not that my time limit is stressful, it’s the fact that I don’t have a god damn clue what I am doing. When I signed up for this class I was ready for a challenge. That is what life is about, stepping out of your comfort zone & exploring things that scare you.

Even though I know I can do this, part of me is beginning to see what I am good at and what I am not good at. Creative writing/pulling shit out of my ass is my specialty (pardon my french) – Journalism, mmm, not so much. Avoiding the things I struggle with will not get me anywhere in life. Deep down, I am simply scared to death of failing. With lots of hard work I hope to avoid that and prove myself wrong. I rubbed my buddhas belly twice today… I hope it helps.

Until this paper is done you (hopefully) will not hear from me. XOXO